periods

Posted on June 30, 2010 by Sarahndipitea

Nine months ago I didn’t realize I was entering a life altering period.
Nine months ago I trusted my heart more than my brain.
Nine months ago I made a small decision that changed my entire life.

15 weeks ago I started a process that I didn’t give much credence to.
15 weeks ago I cried going into a new experience I was scared of.
15 weeks ago I talked to 13 strangers in a cold room about things few of you know about me.

Tuesday night I was handed a rock and it was announced that I was graduating.
Tuesday night there were strangers who said many kind things about me as they held my rock.
Tuesday night after class I put my graduation rock in my pocket and left the building a stronger woman.

In the future, I won’t make the same mistakes that lead me to this experience.
In the future, I might share more details about this period.
In the future, I will let the past 9 months continue to shape my life.

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Overshare

Posted on June 23, 2010 by Sarahndipitea

The building I work in has three firms – two of which are downstairs, and we occupy the upstairs. (I have two windows at my desk. I like that.) One of the downstairs firms employs two males who are loud talkers sometimes. On my way from the bathroom this afternoon I overheard “well I came and then wiped it off her jaw and left.”

*long pause*

Excuse me?

Please tell me that I misheard him and he said something else.

What could he have said?

“Hell, I’m lame and swiped against the law, Jeff.”

“Swell game and I watched it after John left.”

I have to have misheard him, right?

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Lost in Translation

Posted on June 22, 2010 by Sarahndipitea

Just because the handwriting* makes it looks like “headfunk Mabel slap” doesn’t mean it can’t also mean “Headframe to Machine Shop”

However, it does mean that you will giggle for ten minutes straight saying “headfunk Mable slap” aloud to yourself.

*I do a lot of transcribing of notes for my new job … this has been the best mistranslation thus far.

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it’s okay, I know what I’m doing

Posted on June 18, 2010 by Sarahndipitea
  1. I am exhausted. Utterly and completely exhausted. Like, snored-so-bad-last-night-TheMister-actually-mentioned-it exhausted. It feels good and bad and has made me ugly.
  2. I returned last Sunday from a whirlwind trip to Oregon. I watched Admiral graduate from college. I cried like a baby. I am sofa king proud of that woman. I *sigh* can’t really explain. It’s good stuff, man. (Oregon people, I’m looking to plan a late fall trip up there again and hope to bring TheMister with me.)
  3. I survived my first week at my new job. THAT is why I’m exhausted. I work 8am-5:30pm. (Yeah, I know. You do the math. I’m happy with it.) Thankfully I’m low-maintenance enough that I can get up at 6:45am and drive to work. When I start taking the bus I won’t be able to afford that luxury though. I’m easing my body into it. I have been working spreadsheets like none other … both the working on them like none other and the spreadsheets like none other. I am going to be an Excel-Master in about a month. I’ll challenge you to a pivot-table-off. Or something equally as nerdy.
  4. My job – it’s challenging and I love it. I’m doing stuff I enjoy and I’m being paid what I’m worth. I’m looking forward to seeing what gets put on my plate next – and I hear it’s rare to do that at a job.
  5. Speaking of getting paid what I’m worth, I did some calculating, and I make, in two days, what it took me AN ENTIRE WEEK to make at the bank in Portland. I can’t get over what I put up with. I’ll never let myself be treated that way again. Ever.
  6. TheMister continues to be the best cheerleader I’ve ever had … even when I’m snoring. The dood just gets me. I’m glad I got him.
  7. That is all for now.
  8. No, wait! Shit. I forgot. (I went downstairs to pee today and when I got down there, I forgot why I went down. Please see #1 for a refresher on why that would happen.)
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when it all comes together

Posted on June 7, 2010 by Sarahndipitea

because I have to share before I explode

I GOT A JOB!

details to come soon, but it’s a GREAT position & just what I need!

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thoughts

Posted on June 4, 2010 by Sarahndipitea

I thought this week would be the week I’d get a job. Instead, I had four interviews and have two three more scheduled.

I thought that I would accept any employer’s offer because I just need a job. Instead, I’ve learned what I’m worth and have stuck by it – even though the job search has been longer because of that.

I thought this week would drag on because I’m not working full time. Instead, I can’t believe that it’s 3pm on Friday and I still don’t feel like I got enough stuff done.

I thought that moving to San Francisco would be a good idea. Instead, I have learned it was the best decision I’ve made in a very very long time.

I thought that I would hate rain and grey clouds all of my life. Instead, I welcome it after weeks of sunshine and dryness; it smells good.

I thought I didn’t like peppers. I now willingly eat red and green peppers if they’re in my food. I still don’t like mushrooms though.

I thought that the twinge in my left ankle was no big deal. Instead, it’s two weeks old as of tomorrow and it has only gotten worse.

I am thinking about giving up thinking.

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the best

Posted on May 31, 2010 by Sarahndipitea

I haven’t blogged in a long while, my writing mojo is lacking while I continue to hunt for a full-time job (hello, Bay Area employers, I am a kick ass employee!) but I thought I’d let ya’ll know that I had the most fabulous birthday ever this year. TheMister and I spent the day in Santa Cruz on the amusement park rides, in the sun, eating  boardwalk food, laughing and just being ourselves. It was the best present I could have asked for.

I am headed to Oregon on June 9th thanks to a birthday/graduation present from the Admiral. She graduates on the 11th and I’ll be there to beam with pride as she walks across the stage. (Oregon-friends, I’ll be in Roseburg on the 10th, 11th and part of the 12th. My mom is taking me from Roseburg to the Eugene train station on Saturday evening. It will be short and I’ll probably not see you all like I was hoping. I’m crossing my fingers for another trip at the end of the summer.)

Tomorrow I’m back on the WEGO Health writing-wagon as well as the job search wagon and have an interview on Friday scheduled for a full-time & benefited position which could be a great thing. We’ll see.

“True happiness consists not in the multitude of friends, but in their worth and choice.” ~Ben Jonson

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twenty eight

Posted on May 20, 2010 by Sarahndipitea

Next Saturday I’ll turn twenty eight. Like Katie who just turned twenty seven, I don’t know what 28 will bring me. Also, I’m not really worried about what 28 will bring me. The number doesn’t bother me, being a year closer to 30 doesn’t bother me, even tucking away two gray hairs yesterday didn’t really bother me. Okay, I lie about those gray hairs, but still. I’m in a good place in my life right now. No, I don’t have any job security and am barely living paycheck to paycheck, but I am surrounded by opportunities and people who love me. That’s all I could ask for, really. Except the rest of this list.

  1. a job – I have an interview this Friday but am getting to the frustrated point with San Francisco employers. Once I have a job I’ll have health insurance and then I can have a doctor for my birthday, too.
  2. a haircut – when I cut my hair off in June of 2009, I didn’t anticipate that it’d be the last time I’d cut my hair for a year. It’s been a YEAR, people. While I’m getting my hair cut, I’d like an eyebrow wax, too.
  3. a gym membership – for some reason I cannot get myself to work out outside anymore. Since I don’t have #1, I can’t have #3 yet. Soon. Soon.
  4. a spiral notebook with college lined (or smaller) paper – I desperately need to start actively journaling again and think a pretty new blank notebook might start something
  5. a sleeper car ticket on Amtrak back to Portland for a weekend – I miss people there.

So, not much, really, but some pretty big stuff when I think about them. There are absolutely five (plus) things I’m thankful for that I have at 27 & 51 weeks that I didn’t have at 26 & 51 weeks.

  1. TheMister – helping me to make 2010 the best year of my life
  2. many more days of sunshine – living in San Francisco has made me realize that weather patterns change. Sunny today and rainy tomorrow? That’s okay with me. Three months of straight gray days? Not okay.
  3. a brother – Ewokmama’s Cabana Boy has adopted me into his family. I’ve never had a big brother to watch out for me before. Along with Ewokmama and TheMister, I’ve got quite the crew looking over my shoulder.
  4. a Diet Coke addiction – I guess it’s better than crack, right?
  5. self-confidence – I left a familiar city for a strange new place and have learned who I truly am. I have stood up for myself, I have knocked myself down, I have crawled around and laid in people’s laps sobbing. I know who I am thanks to the trials and tribulations of the past year.
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likes and dislikes

Posted on May 14, 2010 by Sarahndipitea

Things I Don’t Like Right Now

  1. “Losing” my job. My contract with The-Job-I-Mostly-Love-So-Much (TJIMLSM) ends on May 26th. I’ll work five hours that day and be done with it. I’m bummed because for the most part I really do like the students I’m working with and my passion for teaching has been relit.
  2. The job hunt I’m on. I’ve applied to over 100 jobs since May 1st. That’s ridiculous. I’ve heard back from a dozen of them. That’s a 12% return rate. I’ve interviewed at THREE of them now. The job market fucking sucks.
  3. Exhaustion. UTTER and TOTAL exhaustion. I am so incredibly tired lately and don’t know why that is. I’m sleeping eight, sometimes ten hours a night and wake up feeling like I could die. I am TIRED. I am not functioning with number three in the next list.
  4. Not having medical insurance. I need to see a doctor. My brain isn’t working right, my back isn’t working right, my stomach hates me (ohhaiulcer!) and my teeth are chipped. Because of number on on this list, I’m keeping finances super-super-SUPER-tight and I can’t have ANYTHING looked at.
  5. My camera. It’s dead. It’s less than two years old and it hates batteries. If I take them out after each use it doesn’t recognize them. If I leave them in, the camera drains them. I’m bummed and haven’t been taking pictures much because of that. *sadface*

Things I Do Like Right Now

  1. Need You Now by Lady Antebellum, Ke$ha and Lady Gaga’s new stuff, too. I’m not embarrassed by my shitty taste in music lately. It makes me smile and I need that lately.
  2. Lamebook – don’t know about Lamebook? You need to click on that link. I promise you’ll get at least one good belly laugh today because of it.
  3. Diet Coke, RedBull, RockStar, coffee, C8H10N4O2, IV drips of a white crystalline xanthine alkaloid. (See number 3 in things I don’t like.)
  4. Sleep. Even though I’m not getting enough of it (according to my body), I like it. Waking up warm and snuggled into the covers (or into number six) just makes me feel good.
  5. crayons, specifically these crayons – they made me cheery the other night when I was struggling. I hope they cheer up a friend when she sees their use on a project for her.
  6. The SanFrancisco Public Library. I have five books out now (they all are read and need to be returned) and a handful of downloaded audiobooks on my iPod. I’m meeting one of my 110 in 2010 goals by being able to read so much. Plus it helps with stress; really it does.
  7. TheMister. I like him all the time, really, even when he teases me and I’m super-super-SUPER-tired and he’s been my biggest cheerleader lately. Thank you, baby.
  8. Etsy. Even though I’m broker than broke, window shopping for things I love has always been a good past time for me.
  9. Facebook, iWin.com and Pogo.com games. I haven’t been playing much lately, outside of the damned Facebook games (damn you productivity killers!) but I love games online. I’m a social game nerd. Also, if you’ve read this far (550+ words!) you deserve to know that TheMister helped me create a WoW character and I *liked* playing WoW with him. It makes me laugh. I said before, I like that.
  10. You all. I have been reading your blogs and trying harder to comment on them because I know it makes you happy, and when my friends are happy, I am, too.

What do you like lately?
What don’t you like lately?

I totally stole this idea from @MrsHeather_E over at SoftSkies

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Winner of the $50 Scrubs & Beyond gift card

Posted on May 14, 2010 by Sarahndipitea

I am super-excited to announce the winner of the $50 Scrubs & Beyond gift card today! (Win a Scrubs & Beyond $50 Gift Card)

Out of 46 entries (woot!) my true random number generator picked #36 as the winner!

That means Leenburke wins the gift card from Scrubs and Beyond! “My mother has been a conscientious nurse for over 25 years and the amount of time and dedication she puts into her thankless job is inspiring. It’s no easy task being an RN!”

Well, Leenburke, I hope that she enjoys her belated Mother’s Day and Nurses Appreciation Week gift from Scrubs and Beyond and the personal finance  blog Savings.com. I will be sending you an email asking for contact information today!

Congratulations, Leenburke, and I thank each of you for your entries and positive nursing stories!

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